I've loved and had my heart broken. Last semester I failed three of my classes because I let the stress of being in love and not being loved back interfere with my School work. It's not the only reason I had such a hard time last semester since I did transfer to a school that I never really cared for. Now it is spring break and I'm still having a little trouble with school. Not because my classes are hard, but because my priorities aren't what they used to be. I'm okay, though. I'm working on getting over some of the insecurities that surfaced while I was pouring my heart out but not really getting the response I had hoped for. Now I am picking myself back up and it has been a pretty slow process. I guess, though, that anything that has a strong foundation takes time to develop. School is supposed to be pretty straight forward. No one tells you how to deal with school when life happens. Some people find their refuge in the distraction of school. For me, school just made it even worse because, as I said earlier, I am now attending a school that I really don't care for. So now what? What are my options? Well, now I have a job. It is a low-paying job, but even with my debts my purpose for working is not really for the money. When I'm not at school I'm at church. Having a job takes up the rest of my idle time, so it takes my mind off of the things that I would struggle to not dwell on. Church has become my refuge. Sunday school, Sunday morning service and Wednesday night bible study have become my opportunities to take whatever burdens I have and take them somewhere else. My church has become my home away from home. School...well...like I said, it's not as high up on my list of priorities as it once was, but I have every intention of finishing. I guess my point today is that sometimes, even with the best intentions and the most well-laid out plans, things can still go down the toilet. However, it is when things go down the toilet that you have to find a way to pick yourself up and come up with something else. Realize that the plans you make are tentative and subject to change. Then you move forward and learn to not be a fool by making the same mistakes twice.