My name is Carolyn Norman and I am a recovering alcoholic and drug addict. I used drugs and alcohol to deal with reality. I was very mean and full of anger. Nothing in the world could make me happy. I was very self centered and full of fear. It was like my higher power took over, I went in the hospital (The CareUnit) I Ended up having a psychotic break and ended up on the psych ward. The doctor didn't tell me until a year later that he didn't think I would pull out of it. I did and God has blessed me. After about 5 years, I ended up getting married and having a beautiful baby girl. In that marriage, I never was happy. I was scared of my husband. He would get up in my face. I didn't feel comfortable talking to him. I finally got up enough nerve to tell him that I wanted a divorce. I started feeling more comfortable, until he came over one night and got right in my face. I was in fear for my life. We went to court and he ended up getting custody of our daughter. That really broke my heart. At the time I was not in my right mind. I ended up in the hospital because I am BiPolar/Manic Depressive. My mind was foggy. I started paying child support. He took me to court every few years to get more money out of me. I got a trailer in 2001. He took me to court wanting more money. He thought that I could afford more since I bought a trailer. Our daughter is in her third year of College. She is a beautiful young woman with lots of potential. I can look back and see how it was the way it was suppose to be. Everything happens for a reason. All that I can do is to be the best I can be for the day. All that we have is right now.