| "You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along." Eleanor Roosevelt |
I wanted to share with everyone that during my time away God gifted our family with a baby girl! We welcomed Kassidy Brooke on November 17, 2018! My family is truly blessed!
Now Let’s begin....
Have you ever been in a traffic jam on the highway? Well that’s the best way to describe this moment as Stuck... behind me sat my past and in front of me sat my future. My future was too far ahead of me that I couldn’t reach. But sat close enough to keep me intrigued but even my future had me trapped. Behind me lurked my past, and I wasn’t trying to go back there. I double checked my rear view mirror from time to time but I could never gaze too long at what seemed like a unrecognizable monster. This thing continually tried to suck me back in, hypnotizing me with my past hiccups. My past was on repeat with the same loops and the same ending. It stayed in my rear view mirror. Always reminding me of who I use to be. On both sides of me were tall trees that blew in the wind. The leaves swayed back and forth making a unfamiliar noise. These trees became my distraction.
So here I was trapped in a small space. With my past, future, and distractions. I wanted out.. Why can’t I get out? Why aren’t I moving? At some point fear settled in, my chest begin to pump faster and eventually there was no rhythm to my breathing. Help! I’m sure I will die here... Stuck. Help! Nobody is there, nobody can hear me. Help, the trees begin to move faster and that unrecognizable noise becomes louder and louder. The rerun of my life that was pictured in my rear view mirror became brighter and brighter. The future that sat in front of me seemed to be farther and farther away. I want out of this car. I’m beating at the window., sweat is flowing from my head. I’m not sure how I got here and why am I not moving.
I am not sure when or how I realized this but somewhere in almost passing out, being distracted, being lured by my past, and an enticing future. I realized I was not pressing the gas...
Seamed simple but my leg felt like it was filled with lead and all of a sudden I couldn’t lift it. I was so tired of always dealing with problems. Maybe, sitting here is not so bad. The tress blew freely! While I sat in the car.... Tick Tock... Time got the best of me.... Tick Tock... I begin to lose time.... Tick Tock... Days slipped away and I was still sitting here like a coward to scared to move.
I can’t be the only one who has been here to scared to move! Can’t go backwards but not sure what forward looked like. And to make matters worst I have swaying distractions trying to get me off tasked.
Fear is like a straight jacket that won’t let go.
Days past.... months passed.... the remaining of a year passed, before I knew it. I was still held hostages in my vehicle. No one else had the power to hit the gas. But Imagine being stuck in traffic for a few hours, a few days, a couple of months. And the only reason why you were stuck was because you didn’t hit the gas! Well, welcome to my life!
Somewhere between exit 101 and exit 105 is where I was stuck. I sat up and re-POSITIONED myself. And I, yes I, I hit the gas! I Pushed Passed the discomfort of how heavy my leg felt. Pushed passed the procrastination, pushed passed fear and I pushed the gas...
I am not sure if you are where I am or if your now story is anything like mine. But if your story is anything like mine. I’m praying that you hit the gas. It’s so easy to get stuck, but more rewarding to hit the gas.
Let’s hit the gas together........
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Here are some common things that keep you stuck
Procrastination- The action of delaying or postponing something.
Fear- A feeling of anxiety concerning the outcome of something or the safety and well-being of someone.
Now here is what the word of Gods says
Philippians 3:13
“Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead.”
Psalm 23:4
“Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.”
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