Hi,

I am full of anger, hatred an fear. I get annoyed easily. People are unpolite. People are rude. I try to be a good civillian. People say "Be nice. Be compassionate" and I end up supressing my hatred and disapproval towards peoples behavior.

1. At the subway at 7am. Everybody is in silence. And there is a guy with loud music. I noticed how I was getting Angry, but didn't say anything.

2. Walking around the street, a guy bumps into me. Looks at me as it were my fault when it wasnt, and he keeps walking without saying sorry

3. I have a small buddha statue in my office desk. Everyday I come the statue is laid down. It's the cleaning lady. I understand she might be having a bad day or something but I get angry. But people say "Be nice. Don't be angry"

How can I not be angry when people are doing this things?!

On the other hand I am afraid that someone confrontational will want to start a fight or if someone kicks me out from my job if I confront the cleaning lady.

I am suffering a lot. Please, help.

I sometimes feel like the problem is in me, but on the other hand I think I Lack Courage and that I have to stand up for myself.

In fact, today I had a dream of me being a doormat. And I felt very disturbed.

Thank you.