Apologies if this is a rambling question, I'll do my best to make it succinct. I consider myself agnostic, but I've always appreciated the idea of Buddhism - at least from an ignorant perspective, I know little of it.

The non-materialistic, meditative ideal really appeals to me, but I don't know how to have a religion and I don't think I'm capable of believing in a higher power or reincarnation.

I don't say that to be antagonistic, that's not what I'm here for - I want people to be able to guide me, and I read that one of the teachings is to question the teachings. That feels good to me.

How do I start deciding if a more secular Buddhism is for me, and I don't in fact just want to learn to meditate? What I want out of it is to find some confidence and peace - I've been struggling with feeling like an impostor and a lack of motivation that I'm starting towards wanting to work through.