How beautiful you are and how pleasing, my Love, with your delights!
Song of Songs 7:6
I think that I am a good looking, fun loving, person, so why am I not dating someone? Well, at first it was because I was not making a connection with people, but now, I have come to a new conclusion. I have decided that I will date me. I have decided to be celibate.
This was not an easy decision. I do believe that it is okay to be gay and Christian. I believe it is okay to date and marry in the same sex. I just don't feel that for me any more. I feel like I am happier and closer to my God when I am not dating. So, maybe just maybe the life of celibacy is for me.
So what is celibacy? Webster says, "the state of abstaining from marriage and sexual relations". So yes, this is my new life. I just have a hard time thinking of no sex. I mean in the past I used masturbation to get through not having anyone. Now I am even rethinking that.
I want to be pure. I want to be right in the eyes of God. In the past I saw it okay to masturbate, yet now I don't know. I did not find a single scripture that says specifically masturbation. So, I don't know how I will treat that. But this blog post today is about dating.
So if I am not dating, what am I doing? I am taking myself out on dates, I am spending time in God's word, I am spending time praying. I am filling the void of a person with the best thing possible, a relationship with God.
I found that where your time and money is spent, is your God. So when I was with women, they were my God as I was spending my time and lots of money on them. So, now I give to God, I give my time and money.
I get so caught up in a woman that I forget to give God time, I stop doing the things that made me prosperous. I am in pursuit of happiness and that is only found in God for me. So I date God, I date me, and the rest can go to the friendship level.
So, will I loose some friends? Yes. Will I not be popular? Yeppers. Will I not have people want to date? Maybe. I have to do me and me is found best in God. I am His bride through the church. He says that I am worthy of love and He freely gives it to me.
So celibacy is my new norm.
This was not an easy decision. I do believe that it is okay to be gay and Christian. I believe it is okay to date and marry in the same sex. I just don't feel that for me any more. I feel like I am happier and closer to my God when I am not dating. So, maybe just maybe the life of celibacy is for me.
So what is celibacy? Webster says, "the state of abstaining from marriage and sexual relations". So yes, this is my new life. I just have a hard time thinking of no sex. I mean in the past I used masturbation to get through not having anyone. Now I am even rethinking that.
I want to be pure. I want to be right in the eyes of God. In the past I saw it okay to masturbate, yet now I don't know. I did not find a single scripture that says specifically masturbation. So, I don't know how I will treat that. But this blog post today is about dating.
So if I am not dating, what am I doing? I am taking myself out on dates, I am spending time in God's word, I am spending time praying. I am filling the void of a person with the best thing possible, a relationship with God.
I found that where your time and money is spent, is your God. So when I was with women, they were my God as I was spending my time and lots of money on them. So, now I give to God, I give my time and money.
I get so caught up in a woman that I forget to give God time, I stop doing the things that made me prosperous. I am in pursuit of happiness and that is only found in God for me. So I date God, I date me, and the rest can go to the friendship level.
So, will I loose some friends? Yes. Will I not be popular? Yeppers. Will I not have people want to date? Maybe. I have to do me and me is found best in God. I am His bride through the church. He says that I am worthy of love and He freely gives it to me.
So celibacy is my new norm.
