Lately, my anxiety feels like it’s evolving. I cry almost every night before I go to sleep because I feel so sad for no known reason, whenever I mess up at work or socially my brain instantly goes “you could kill yourself” or “you deserve pain”, even though it’s not an urge, but it still scares me. My boyfriend lives in another town and I don’t have a driver’s license, so I miss him a lot between visits. I don’t want to burden my friends with this because they’re busy and have their own lives and stuff to deal with, and when the opportunity to tell my mum came up, I just couldn’t do it. I haven’t seen my counsellor since November, and I won’t be able to see her until the 31st of this month. But based on how she’s treated my concerns in the past, she probably wouldn’t even listen. Just feel like I have to vent or I’ll lose it completely.

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