Jason is starting a new job this week and for reasons I haven't really Talked about much here, this will be a big change for me (and him as well to be sure.)

One of the Things Jason and I do a lot is talk.  We talk a lot.  And on Monday (the last minute stat holiday for many) we talked for hours and hours on the phone.  Big things, for the most part, life things, hopes, dreams, memories, fears of the changes to come (mainly mine).

While we can never really know what life is going to bring us, that being the nature of life after all, things have been relatively stable with Jason and I for a long time now.  This next chunk of time will change that just by the nature of his day to day changing.

I'm trying to be neutral about what it may mean for me because the truth is I do not know.  I am happy for him and believe it will be a good fit for him and a positive change in his life.  For myself?  I'm nervous about it, occasionally anxious or afraid.  But sometimes hopeful.

After the last few years it feels tricky to be looking forward to something, to have faith in a change.  Covid has been and continues to be a massive change.  I'm still trying to pull positivity out of all of that... it's hard.  So to see this change that's arriving and let it be what it's going to be is a challenge.  But I'm trying.

And just like with Covid, and life in general, there's really only so much I can do/control/change/affect.  Life is life.  Things change.  Shift happens.

I hope Jason and I will still find and make the time to have long conversations and hang out too.