You know the meme of the dog sitting in his burning kitchen (?) surrounded by flames drinking his coffee/tea saying "this is fine"?  

Well, Yesterday, in the first week of July, it was chilly enough in my place that rather than turn the radiators on (oh wait, I forgot to tell you our system is borked so there is no heat in our place right now anyway so scratch that) I got myself a hot water bottle to warm up a bit.

I am happy happy to not be hot.  I'll state that for the record, I am ok with a cooler Summer.  Except... a year ago we had a heat dome.  It was awful.  And now I'm closing windows at night and using hot water bottles.

Weather wise... climate wise... "this is fine".

Spoiler:  It's not at all fine and I full on know it but in order to not live having constant panic attacks or being heavily sedated and out of it I sort of have to knowingly *just* focus on today.  Not the near and far future.  Not how bad this may all get, is likely to get... just... today.

Sure, I do what I can, within my limits and ability, but I also am working to survive and be mentally and emotionally ok within the confines of a very not ok world and Environment. (And by environment I mean the literal environment and "environment" as in... alllllllll the things.)

I know I'm in a world that is not ok in many ways and with regards to these increasingly not "normal" averages in weather... I'm just getting through today.

And yesterday I needed a hot water bottle.  At the end of this week I most likely will not and this will just be another blip in the radar.