Last night, I didn't really Sleep.  Or, I suppose, the amount of sleep I half got was far too short and to make it worse, I feel like it's my fault.

See, we're in the middle of Winter.  But the temperatures have been a little unsure about that this last while.

We had the snow and cold cold and then things switched to feeling relatively mild.

So mild in fact that for the last week (or two?) I've taken off two of my blankets and had both of my bedroom windows open.  Yes, that's Spring/Fall level of mild.  Weird maybe but I just went with it.

A couple of nights ago things cooled down.  I found myself waking in the middle of the night to close up one window but went right back to sleep.

Well, last night didn't work that way.  When I went to bed I thought it was a bit colder to I put all my blankets up and even threw the "emergency" blanket on top (it's my housecoat, shhhh).

I closed down one window and left the other only a little open.  And then I could not fall asleep.

I was not warm enough to fall asleep.  Or I was too cold to fall asleep.  I probably tried for an hour because I could not believe I wasn't warming up.  I adjusted my blankets.  I tried to ignore the cold and how cold I was.  And this is where I blame myself.  Same as needing to go pee when in bed, I often try really really hard to get to sleep (or stay asleep) that I make things worse for myself than if I just got up and dealt with the thing.

So it was maybe three in the morning when I decided to get out of bed and close up (not completely) the other window.  But then it still took ages for me to warm up enough to fall asleep and then I had to get up at "normal" times anyway so yeah, major lack of sleep and I feel miserable and just cried over something minor.  (Ooops)

I think it was just too much of an oddity for my tired, half dozing brain to think through and also I can't sleep if I'm too warm so that floats around too, but I feel like if in the first, what... half an hour? of feeling so cold, if I had closed both windows completely and maybe even cracked on the radiator a tiny bit, I might have gotten a reasonable night's sleep and I'm miserable enough this morning to be super choked that I didn't.

Here's hoping tonight is a different type of situation, but also I'm pretty sure if I'm *that* cold in bed again I'll be coming up with warming solutions a lot faster than last night.  So drained.  Send help!