Hi everyone 😊,

With Christmas around the corner .....I have nothing but joy,joy,joy down  in my heart. Maybe it has something to do with the warm temperatures we've been having...I'm still wondering if I will get to see a white Christmas this year at all.😕
     On to the topic at hand ....Where do I start? I remember  when I had my very first crush....I was in grade school/elementary/primary school and I remember  his face  to this day....I had no clue what it meant just that whenever I saw him I wanted him to notice me.Lol Now fast forward 20 years and much haven't really  changed. Relationships have been a roller coaster for me,I mean I've had the good,the bad and the was I drugged the entire time ??😆😅 But I can tell you that there have been two people I've been "in love" with who have somehow shook me to the core and made me 1.Question myself and 2.Question the notion of "Love" ever after.See,there was the story of unrequited love....the kinda love where I settled for someone that served no concrete purpose or planted roots in my life.I remember walking away and feeling totally lost as a result of "Loving the wrong person right".You know how they always say we love the ones who hurt us and hurt the ones who love us??Hmmmmmmmmm "They" didn't lie.....I think at that point in time,I lost my faith in LOVE....and that's when I found God.So you really have to hit rock bottom to be able to see the top.Finding a relationship with God in 2009 was exactly what I needed  to find myself again,to figure out who I was after I had done all these things I'd told myself I would never do!.After i's accepted things i never wanted!.See when you've actually crossed the lines you vowed you  never would ... I was absolutely lost...All in the quest to loved!.See,I've always had a fairytale notion when it comes to LOVE...Boy meets girl,Boy dates girl,Boy and girl  make babies and live happily ever after.In the real world that Idea I've carried with me was but a dream and so I thought maybe if I just stopped wanting ...stopped loving...maybe then I wouldn't be dissapointed but see what I learned is that if God is able to LOVE me unconditionally and if he has put that kind of LOVE in my heart then it means that he's also placed someone just like me who craves the same thing that I do and so......He sent me "LOVE ".....right when I was about to give up on my happily ever after he sent me a man that was able to love me.I mean not just like me for a few  months or stick around for a season but someone who loved just the way I did!And I believe that was his gift to me.....to remind me that I'm worthy of everything I expect!And that settling for less is never an option!.Now I've been loved thoroughly....And just like most things ,People come for a purpose and a reason and then they move on....So now being where I am today....I can look back and see the true value of real love!Now If something doesn't feel right...I get antsy.If I have to question someone's commitment .... I start retreating.What dishonor  it would be for me to settle for some half assed attempt at "Love" "Like" "Infatuation " after the bar has been set so high?? 💡 See,I've given chances to people who should have never gotten a second look and I've learned that even that  is okay because we all have a journey and so we all play a role In each other's lesson.So just like I've been taught to only accept that which my heart desires and maybe just maybe have a little faith in the LOVE I preach.....maybe I can teach someone how to ❤.
     Before you take my word for it.....Disclaimer:I do not know it all....and some days I forget all that I've learned and settle for a moment but my heart won't allow the betrayal and so I knock myself up the head when need be so I don't fall too far into the bootleg kinda love that people give so freely.At the end of the day as I always say LOVE!It's better to take the risk than spend your life wondering what if..........
   I hope I make sense to someone...or at least I hope I've given you enough of a peek into my heart.Be Blessed!Be a Blessing! LOVE! 😙

🎄Happy Holidays to you and yours! 🎄