A little over a year ago we thought we were going to lose my grandma. And now. Now it looks like it really is the end. Her lymph glands are shutting down, the tumour in her lungs has increased in size. I don’t want to say Goodbye. I’m not ready.

I know that Death is not the end. I know that I will one day see her again in heaven. Just like all of my other grandparents. I know that she’s ready to go be with my grandpa. But that still doesn’t mean I’m ready.

There’s so much in the next 6 months.

• Her oldest great-grandchild is going to have baby number 2 in just over a week
• Her oldest granddaughter is getting married Oct 6 (that would be me)
• Her youngest granddaughter (there’s only two of us) is due with her first baby on Oct 6

There are many more milestones for her to see and none of us are truly ready to say goodbye.