This week Jon and I are in Honolulu for a froend's Wedding. It's a weird/good thing to be in such a happy celebration mode when your heart is still grieving. I'm trying my darnedest to really celebrate what is happy and live fully-kinda like a fake it till you make it situation.

This is my third time to this Island, the first when I was 17, the second when I was 25 and now here I am back at 30. It is fascinating to see the development of the island just in that short period of time-especially contrasted with how much my own life has changed since then. The more I live the more I realize how essential and mandatory change is. You can ignore it, resist it or accept it and no matter your outlook change will just keep on chugging along. 

I feel like I can only look at things through the lense of loss right now so I apologize in advanced if all my posts take on a "deeper level" for a bit-but that's just where I am at the moment. 

Tomorrow the wedding festivities begin-looking forward to celebrating a new beginning!