She will be turning 2 in a month…time really flew by…not really if I see from a different perspective… But when I think about her it really did…she was just born yesterday :). When she was born I had the habit of measuring her Face with my finger…her face was as big as my biggest finger …lol…and I happen to still do that just to make sure she is growing and to see how fast. She was barely seen awake then…giving us sleepless nights though…lol…and whenever she was awake she would just choose a point in the room and look continuously there… And just rotate her eyes. Her Naani called her “Buttano” coz of that. :))
We got the letter ‘J’ during the namkaran ceremony on the 13th day…and I was so happy to name her JasMeher because at-least the second part had my initial ;). I remember during one of the nights when it was 4 am and she was up since 12.30… I was so irritated and sleepy I scolded her…she was in mumma’s arms…she was barely 40 days old…but the way she took out her lower lip out and formed a spout to show her anger…I was moved to tears!
Me and my brother took so many pictures of her…even when she was doing potty…lol…oh god she is going to kill us!
The first smile she gave me when she was wearing a pink dress…her cheeks were pinkish that day…so fresh in my mind…like yesterday 😍 that lovely toothless smile. Due to my so many issues…I was never totally fair to her…often she bore the brunt of my anger…still she has loved me the same way…but I am so sorry…so sorry. So foolish I was and I am; to check if she still wants me and loves me…i used to hide and see..if she will come crawling and looking for me? And she did…she really did. Never punished me.
The most difficult part was leaving her. I came back fine…but as soon as I felt the emptiness of the house…of my life…I broke down. But now I feel it was good for her and I am glad we too that decision.
I felt so jealous when she said “papa-papa” always and not mumma…😁but she said it finally… I was on cloud nine and so proud!!! When it was the time to go back to her she was so grown up…she spoke…understood almost everything…amazing…they grow so fast. Once we were reciting path and she got up, came to my face, with her tiny hands tucked the hair coming onto my face to the back of my ear…oh my my…i couldn’t stop my laughter. The touch of those soft hands doing such a lovely thing…priceless!!! She would wipe my face 😊…hug me so tight that I was not able to breathe…kiss me so hard to leave marks of her teeth 😉….I can write a book!
But what drove me to write about all this is one little fact…these kids…sometimes called angels…sometimes..bundle of joy…at times impression of God…yaar they make you feel so special….they offer unconditional love…no matter you scold them..you pull their cheek or slap them…why why why…they are so innocen to still love you…they come and say sorry…and hug you…forgive you…make you feel that you are the most special person in the world. No human can give you this pleasure… make you feel complete…content…on-top-of-the-world…such a boost to your ego…i fear of becoming arrogant 😜
I just want to thank her for showering so much love on me and to keep on doing that…and I promise to become better parent.
And last but not the least…I would like to thank my friends for life…who gave my life(JM) so much love and care…that I never imagined…Ravi-Sukeshi, Sai, Rekha, Hitendra, Barkha…In tough times of course Jaideep was always there, but you guys..never ever left our side and were always there…I cannot imagine…how I or we would have survived in Bombay without you.so a BIG thanks you to all of you! Thanks infinity times 😛! Love you all!
