I am back in Tamparuli to prepare for the arrival of the little one. I thought I have the patience and actually built for the Waiting game since I do not have any major problems throughout all the three trimesters.

BUT, this waiting period for delivery time. 36 weeks onwards and I am on my 38th week now. GOD! It is frustrating. ESPECIALLY when people keep telling you that

• they could give birth as early as 36th week, 
• their baby is engaged as early as 34th week. 
• they have back pain, struggling to walk etc

I on the other hand is like, why the hell none of this is actually happening and now I am on my 38th week.

Left to Right : 36th, 37th, 38th week. Ada turun sudah ka tu belly? Huhu

Updates for now

• Baby's head is still not engaging at the birth canal
• Doctor said low chances of normal delivery
• People keep asking when I am giving birth ( how should I know)
• Then when I mentioned that I might be considering a c-section due to the shape of my pelvic opening (as suggested by my gynae), kena roll eyes and they question why don't wanna try normal delivery

SIGH!

I am so tired of all this. I am not tired being pregnant, I still can walk, dance, climb stairs and what not. Physically I am not tired. But when it comes to socializing, it is like an emotional massacre. They judge you even before you have done something. Punya la.

Malas sa begini oh.