I think about you sometimes

When I can’t remember why,

We parted so suddenly,

Or how you made me cry,

Or all the Pain that was suffered.

In those moments,

I remember only your smiles,

And that I would’ve crossed,

An ocean or a hundred miles,

To see it on your face,

I wonder if you,

Remember me that way,

As something good that Passed.

I wonder what you say,

When I come up in conversation.

Do you pretend to not remember?

Do you say that you miss,

All that we were?

Maybe you use my name as a diss,

I wish I knew

But I will never,

Learn how you feel,

Or what I mean,

Because I have to let you heal,

The wounds on  your heart.

The wounds I caused.

The ones that made your soul bleed.

Because of the betrayal,

And my own greed.

I was foolish then.

I thought you would never leave.

I saw you as forever mine.

No matter how much I fought with you,

I though you would be fine,

That you would understand my insecurities.

I had seen your Love,

I assumed it would kill my demons,

But not even love was strong enough,

But just like the seasons,

Your love faded,

The scars run deep.

They will be there forever,

As the pain that has passed,

I will treat them as treasures,

That reminds me of the sweet things,

And the life we planned to share.

Sometimes, I still need protection,

From the words you stated,

Describing my delirious obssesion,

The day you left me alone.

She said you asked,

Where I was and what I was doing.

She said I should stop hiding.

But there is no way of explaining,

All my demons to you.

Someday, maybe,

I will be able to answer,

The questions I never let you ask.

Then, our relationship won’t be a disaster,

Just something that happened a long time ago.