I've read some where that people are more rational when they think, Write or speak in their second or third language. I knew it some how, even before I read it. having a fight in English was one of our techniques (me and Ex) because it give us like fraction of seconds more before saying anything from where we couldn't come back.

I also tend to write in English when i'm sad or mad, and i have done it for almost two decades.

Today i'm feeling the change, it is starting to make a hole in my stomach and i'm gaining kgs also.

There is olny one thing i'm not sure if i'm melancholic ( that would be normal) because I have not friends yet over here,  or i'm pretty sad  because A. hasn't make any attempt to get in touch with me. He screws things up and then no words.  I really thought we where friends, and he would reach out for me. I've been misteken.