To my shock Yesterday I reached a new low.

After I reminded HER that I was going there -- and asked her to check with her mom if I could stay at her house she didn't respond immediately. The last trip her mom wanted me to leave. In fact, she wansted to kick me out during Christmas but her Dad and Sister convinced her that I should stay.

This woman who I used to call MOM; this woman who stayed in my home for over a year; this woman who used the third car garage to store her husband's M3; this woman who used my house as a party central for her family...now won't allow me to stay in her house.

I am flabbergasted. Of course I'd be wrong if I didn't disclose the fact that she was exceptionally helpful with juggling the kids. But there were problems too.

Despite the X's lies, infidelity, insanity - at the end of the day I didn't receive any sympathy from anyone on that side of the aisle.

At least now I know where I stand.

I'm fighting a horrific cold - and tomorrow night I fly to Florida. I'm spending the night at a hotel near there. Saturday morning I'm going to pick up the kids and head to Punta Gorda. Ironically the X suggested the area -- I believe it's where her bald lover stayed the last time he visited. The place is on the beach. I know my kids and I will have a great time. Sunday night I'm going to drive them back to the what I used to call my MIL's House. Then, Sunday night I'll be staying at a fabulous howard johnsons. I'll head back home early Monday morning.

I cn't tell my parents about this. No good will come of it. My only goal is to get her to NC and divorce here under a mutually agreed contract. I don't want to see her again. I hate her. I hate her family.

I am so depressed. I can't wait until this mess is over....

On a side, relevant, and positive note -- yesterday, when I learned about my X's mom's decision I encountered an angel. A friend of mine at work saw my face -- and soon after invited me to dinner. He and his wife openned their home with love. I had a nice meal, wine, and I even slept over. It was an oasis. I thank God for that oasis...

There's so much to be thankful for. I am taking a day at a time. Someday, I will live up to the promise of this blog; I will be bigger, faster and stronger.

Peace to you.