Wow this year is flying by! I guess it helps that I stay Busy. Seriously, it seems like only yesterday was my DC trip back in August!

A lot has happened, but nothing that feels significant today. I’m still working. Still love my job. I love my department, but it’s easy to feel unappreciated some days because some of my users can be right assholes. So some days I come home with the kill all humans mentality.

Don’t get me wrong, other days it’s a lot better. Things have been turbulent in the company since the CEO was ousted back in April. I like the new CEO, he seems an OK guy. I liked the old CEO too. But I am still a peon no matter who’s in charge. In the 4 years I have worked here, I have been offered 3 other jobs. One of which would have paid nearly twice what I’m making now. Another of which I would have been managing a team of folks I previously worked with. I turned them all down because I like the job I have. I do wish the job paid more. I do wish that some users would treat me better.

I work all week, sometimes I work on the weekends. I’m OK with that, it’s part of the job. What has always irked me was when a user complains about an after hours event and asks me, “Can’t you do this on the weekend?” I always want to tell them “Well I’m working THEN too!” or “No, I’d like to have some time off too!” but I don’t. I realize that not everyone understands my job. Unless you’re in IT, or another 24/7/365 profession, you don’t know what it’s like to never really be away from a job. I am not a “9 to 5” type of person anyways, so this suits me just fine.

I actually had a lot more written on this but deleted most of it … I’m irritated with a user right now who at this very moment refuses to follow instructions so I’m frustrated. But anyways…

I have a dental appointment today. Going to get a crown put on a tooth I broke earlier this month. Apparently I grind my Teeth more than I realized. During my last checkup, I had 3 cracked teeth. (including the one that eventually broke) My dentist thinks that’s why I’m still having so many headaches. Sure, they’re not migraines, but not all of them are allergy-related. And the fact that I grind my teeth all day long is putting a strain on me. So yeah, not fun. I had the broken tooth get a filling two weeks ago, and today it’s getting crowned. I will eventually get crowns on the others, bleh.

I got the “you need to find an outlet for your stress” speech from my dentist. I told him I know, and that my doctor gives me the same speech. I actually have a new therapist, but appointments aren’t as often as I’d like. I have some very deep seated anger and resentment towards several people in my life. I am trying to let go of that before it kills me.

Some days I feel like it is winning …

BUT! Believe me when I tell you that I am good. No seriously.

I had dinner with Jess over the weekend, so that was definitely the highlight. There was a bit of drama just getting that arranged, but honestly I am not going to devote time and energy being upset over someone who has absolutely no impact on my life. (or so I say right now LOL) I spent some time yesterday working on a server that had gone down during the morning. (in fact I’ve got to spend time today trying to figure out why he’s misbehaving) I mentioned it to a coworker this morning who replied, “I didn’t notice anything being offline.” To which I told her, “That’s how you know I’m doing my job.” She LOL’d. :)

So yeah … I’m staying busy. I am playing Guild Wars 2 a little and trying to halfway keep a social life. I am not dating anyone and not looking to do so. I have an ex-boyfriend who’s trying to worm his way back into my life. Yeah, NO. And the creeps I meet online usually want only one thing — seriously, if all I wanted was tail, I would NOT look for it online! I was trying to explain this to a friend Friday night. I want someone who has more than two brain cells to rub together to form a thought. I mean sure, it’s nice to have a physical connection with someone, but I want more. And I could go on and on about how much I loathe men who lie and cheat.

Why can’t people be more honest with each other? :(

Anyways, that’s me in a nutshell lately. Working, working, and working some more. A little shenanigans here and there as time and energy allow. Now that it’s football season, I have games every Saturday with MMOs and table-topping in between. I am thinking of maybe taking a trip for the holidays this year. I haven’t decided anything definitively yet, but I need to get out more. I need to see more people and do more things. I’ve just been putting that off for so very long for all the wrong reasons.

I hope this post finds you well. Have a good week!