Just another day has passed in our fast flowing life. Many things has changed from yesterday to today but that doesn’t include my desire to write something here!This has been a place of expressing my feelings for a long time now and today is no different day. Today I am back again to write something like I always do,write something after hearing something from you. You people know whom I refer that ‘you’ to!
I know you are thinking of someone when I say that and yes you are correct. I am back again to write about my angel,love blah blah……….

I am writing for you yet again.
Lem me start now……..,

I love you, with all of my Heart, I want you to understand just how much I wish I could be there with you right now. I want to wrap my arms around you and hold you close to me. I wish that as you were reading this I could be curled up against your chest and feel your heartbeat. As I am writing this I am angry at myself, I am angry that I still haven’t been able to make you realise how much I love you. I am angry that you still are in confusion about whom I actually love and I still can’t make your heart realise how much I love you and how much I want you.

Love knows no boundary; cannot be captured; nor can it be cast away. Once embedded, love becomes part of the very fiber that holds a beating heart together. Death only is love’s remedy; its antidote.
Ask me why I keep on loving you when it’s clear that you don’t feel the same way for me. The problem is that as much as I can’t force you to love me,I can’t force myself to stop loving you. I always feel the same for you. You are treasured in my heart and I can assure you that it is as protected as the resources are in the Treasury of a clan castle;no one can ever steal it.

I know people will find it funny if I say no other girls can take the space in my heart like she has done and I am sure she finds the same too. I never give my justification to these people because I know they will never get it. They have never felt the same way as I have and unless people don’t get this incredible feeling of love,a true love,an unconditional love they will never understand what I am going through and why I say so,why I can’t get her out of my heart.

I still dream about her every night. I know this may sound very funny and filmy to someone but I really dream about her every single night and when I wake up from that dream I feel like it was for real and then open Facebook,visit her profile and finally check her messages that brings myself to reality. I still spend afternoons thinking about you. Someday I promise myself to not to think about her but I always fail and now I have stopped to make that silly promise with myself because it don’t yield the result you want.

I am holding onto something hoping it will come back,knowing it will not. The people of mine age will never get what I am saying because they can never feel the same. I have got the feeling someone would get at matured young age but that didn’t apply to me. I have got this feeling too soon but I wish I would never have. I wish so because My age cannot tackle with the problem it is causing me in my life and I am completely unaware about how to tackle this situation.

I get ridiculous feelings some times. I remember last time she said she don’t hate me. I am amazed with the way I could never hate you. Today was one of those days when everything I did reminded me of you and every song I listened to somehow related to you. I hate days like this because I think even my own life is teasing myself. I hate days like these because they remind of one thing I never had and probably will never have but still want it from deep heart.

I know you absolutely rejected me. When you did so I didn’t think that it would be so hard to get you out of my memories. I thought I would be okay with this but expectation vs reality chart had a massive difference. Every day that passes by  I love you even more and more no matter what happens. I was wrong about what I thought then,I was so wrong. I can’t stop myself breaking down crying. I have been writing that It may sound filmy and same applies here too,It may sound filmy to people who can’t understand what I am going through but damn It is a reality and I can’t get over it.

People often bring my past life into question when they talk about my present situation. Past life means the relationship I had been in on the past. Oh come on people What happened in past just happened, don’t keep me reminding of that relationship. I was amazed that even she was confused If I actually love her or I still love the previous girl. Can anyone of you imagine what went through my head when she said so? No!I don’t think none of you can. I love a girl with everything I have,she has completely taken over my life and till now She don’t actually believe I love her. She must be thinking I am talking useless craps here aiming to melt down her heart if she ever reads this but NO dear girl, I don’t intend to melt down your heart with my words and don’t beg for your love. Do you even realise a part of thing that went through my head when you said you are confused about whom I love? It’s Irony isn’t it?When you were angry with me when a third person said something to you. I mean the third person made you feel like I was making him feel guilty of everything that has happened. I was amazed when you sent a message full of anger to me. I didn’t even explained what happened in those messages with that third person because you would never believe me. I talked to third person about these things in very good manner making sure that he doesn’t feel like he did all these craps but gosh I failed!
He made you feel like I was pointing everything at him when I didn’t point anything. I wrote him long messages to make sure he doesn’t feel guilty but I was wrong.
 When you sent the message that was full of eruptions There was so many things over spoken yet so many things never said. My words were empty, my mind remained in a state of blank whilst it screamed in agony because something that I didn’t intend happened.

I don’t know who have said you things about my past life and you keep denying to say it but I want to know who s/he actually is? Who is that person who is creating all these stuffs without knowing my current state.
I cry tears that stream down my cheeks of rivers for you, yet not one drop shall ever reach you.
I scream into my pillow and weep till my heart overflows heavy with unbearable pain,
I scream into my pillow till I am too exhausted to breathe and my pillow is saturated with tears. Subsequently with futile and meaningless outcome. I feel this and that’s why I want to know the person creating all these!I hope I will get your reply about these things because my love for you deserves one reply for my queries (at least)…………………………….