I have lately been feeling quite Sick mentally and physically. Life has become constant whirwind of meaningless arguments and meetings. What’s the point of it all. Half the days, I can barely sleep. Some days it physically excruciating pains at various parts of the body or mentally racing thoughts and struggles.

I have been worrying about a lot of things lately, my future, the country’s future, the viruses future. When I talk about these people don’t seem to grasp that I am struggling to pause. If I express myself, I am misunderstood 99% of the time. People just to jump to conclusions about me. I am just so sick and tired of it. In all of it, I am searching for a little bit of unconditional love.

I am in so much pain right now(leg pain) that my eyes are closing due to tiredness but I am tossing and turning. Hence, though might as well write about it. What does life has that is so good, that someone has to live in so much pain and agony. Life is filled with pain anyways. People drop dead. Viruses come in. People leave. Things happen. Then why bother at all.

Maybe I am in depression. But that triggers anxiety. And that triggers OCD. And that overdoes everything. And the frustration circles round and round. How do we break the cycle? Of depression and COVID 19.