I thought it would feel liberating,
I thought it would feel good.
But instead, here i sit
falling apart like I never thought I would.

I remember you,
and how you used to make me smile.
I think i made a terrible mistake
the day I walked away.

You begged me to stay,
and I wish I had.
I recall every conversation,
and feel there’s so much more that I’d like to add.

Every second without you
feels like an eternity spent.
I wish I could go back in time
and cease this endless torment.

But I know I’m stuck
with the decisions I have made.
I can’t reach out to you,
because I feel afraid.

So here I sit,
falling apart like I never thought I would.
I don’t feel liberated,
I don’t feel good.

–Meghna Jain