The above picture was taken July 2013, the day one of my dreams came true, I met my idol Shane Filan. I love his voice and he is such a genuinely lovely down to earth guy. Yes I was realllyyy nervous meeting him for the first time but it was totally worth the wait. Fast forward to today and here I am sitting writing this post with tears in my eyes, yet again filled with nerves.
I have a ticket to go and see Shane live in Glasgow on March 29th. Every so often I let out a little squeak and say to the hubby "ahhhhh only *insert days here* to go" I had to miss his 2014 tour as I was unwell and little did I know that was the start of PMDD.
So why am I crying? I am going to be 100% honest with you, I am scared to let myself get excited about going as I am expecting my symptoms to flare up and stop me from going or that when I am there they will start and it usually means horrible dizzy spells. Strangely having a panic attack whilst I am there doesn't worry me as I know that will pass quickly and is easy to cope with, the adrenaline will have a place to go anyway!!
I was heartbroken when I missed his first solo Tour and I really don't want the same to happen this time. I am looking Forward to a night of amazing music from a very talented man and also Meeting up with some of the Lovely friends I made thanks to Westlife, but knowing I am travelling alone and also sitting by myself is making me really nervous. Yeah I have been to concerts on my own before and it has never ever bothered me but this is the first time in 4 years I have been to one alone and for me this is a massive step for me and I know if I do this I can do anything.
I will leave you with one of my favourite songs off his album, Right Here.
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