Currently, I have two crucial decisions to make. That is to permantly remove my Tongue Ring, or stay with it till 'who knows when she give up'. This is probably a disaster which I've not seen it coming, I mean the piercer was great, she did went through the pros and cons of my tongue. On the other side, the days of swelling seemingly have not yet subside and I'm beginning to question a possible infection. Brushing my teeth was hell so as smoking a stick. However this is just a warm up eh? I reckon that after the aftermath is gone, my speech and chewing movement will eventually improve or go back to normal.
It's the fourth day and my impatience nature are not learning to adapt. I get frustrated and agitated easily, say like this morning when I woke up with saliva drooling down my chin. And I got up in a state of 'panic', trying to look for the mouthwash I placed at the kitchen counter yesterday. Blame no one, it was my fault for not putting it back to the original location. So I got really angry at myself and start banging the door nearby. I mean, situations like this could be prevented if I'd been more attentive and careful. I is it can't control the midst of a seemingly epithetic fit.
Partially was the medication, I can't stress enough how much I miss my fluxotine, although there were times where I mentioned to the doctors that a strong woman need no medication to handle her. Well I was wrong, I crave for the bitterness of the pill. That'll be the last appointment at SGH before I travel to genting with my mom.
Back to the important point, to remove or to wait for the swelling process?
Firstly if removed, I'll be wasting my money, my own personal savings that has nothing to do with my parents.
Secondly, the joys of chewing and earring solid foods are just one stop away from my decision.
Thirdly, damn I won't have to keep rinsing my mouth after eating, purging, smoking, drinking etc etc.
And lastly, God I need to start talking it feels unjustified when mom was nagging the entire time while all I could do was laugh or smile at her stupidity.
That's it I'm permanently removing it. Sucks to my savings and bollocks to the ring.
Lesson learnt. Never get something you're not fully confident of. I thought I was ready for the pain but 5 pain killers a day are taking its toll on my health and liver. I couldn't sit through another two days of supplying myself pain killers just for the swollen tongue. I've truly made a mistake and this will be out of my list.