Yesterday i made a pretty big blunder....cant exactly reveal
it coz the embarrasment would be pretty much evident....but
in the end just one question came popping into my mind...

What if i hadnt reacted to that in this particular fashion???

What if i didnt say what i did say???

What if i didnt lose my temper and had reacted to it in a
perfectly sane way??

What if i had just had thought over the whole incident and
considered myself to be at fault instead of blaming the
other person involved??

What if i didnt let my over inflated ego to take over??

What if life werent this tough??
¨What if.......????¨

Life at times can be so utterly fragile,so utterly irritating
and so damned complicated....

All it takes is one second to do something u´ve been trying
to finish for ages,one mild brainstorm to solve that stupid
maths problem,one loss to realise how much someone meant to
you and just one stupid sentence to hurt the person who cares
so much about you...

Similarly one blunder can turn your life upside down,one chance
left unutilised can leave you crying forever,and the loss of
one person you always took for granted can leave you relenting
for a long long long
time....

Remember the time you just missed getting hit by that speeding
car,remember the time you almost hit that little child playing
innocently on the road???

Its at times like these that I sit back and just look at all
the past moments that ive been through,the various people ive
had the good fortune to meet,the various errors that i so foolishly
committed and the utterly uncontrollable reprucussions that have
followed them...

So many times have i noticed that 5 or 6 completely isolated small
¨inconsistencies¨ or rather problems in your life fantastically and
suprisingly merge together giving you such an unsurmountable bundle
of agony that you wonder why didnt you deal with them while you could
still tackle them..

Simultaneously,ever wondered why is it that at such times of distress
every single ray of light suddenly chooses to disappear....

Ahh,i guess by now you must be thinking that im going through a
rather bad patch to be posting stuff like this but it isnt
entirely true...

The fact is it is only in times of sadness that u realise
the true worth and value of happiness....

And my quiet musings of What life would be if i ¨had done that¨
still go on...........