my toenail gradually turned purple, hung loose for afew days. it has just decided to leave the rest of my Body. it refuses to have anything more to do with me. just like that. after so many years. wonder whether my hairs feel the same about me. wonder if they wonder how long more they have to put up with me. or my brain, which is asleep right now. could it be dreaming of a revolution against my body? what if every piece of me declared itself independent, maybe while i'm asleep? maybe i should stay awake at night, just to keep myself together. just in case.

maybe my heart will leave me too. i'd have to break my own heart first, as a precaution.