The week didnt start off well unless you count the Weekend as the first day, which anyhow, wasnt fantastic either. i got up on monday feeling crappy from a bad dream and just had two days of shit work and big boss sitting beside me bombarding me with questions. why isnt it Friday yet, it feels like i've been through a long fucked up week and its only been two fucking days. weekends are no use to me either, but definitely better than the last two days. i haven't been blogging and i cannot remember where i left off. it feels like ages. but nothing has changed anyhow. still doing the same things, waking up at the same hour, whining about the same issues, nothing new. other than the fact that i've been suffering from severe bouts of apathy and outside of work, i just lie in bed. i think this lifeless being of mine must be affecting my work as well. i dont seem to understand what my boss or my traders are saying lately and i think they must feel the same way about me too. i am going downhill and i am trying my best to ease the pain when i hit bottom by using whatever form of brakes i can find. and its wearing me out.

i dont have anything else to say. this is the part i hate most when i'm posting. its when i dont have anything else and i dont know how to end the post. well, i guess this is it then.