Whew.....can I say that again? Whew!!!! Today has been one of those days where one could doubt God and the plan that He has for you. We serve an awesome God despite how we can allow ourselves to feel. We have to remember that He is just a call away. No matter how much we are in the word, the human side of us has a tendency to take control if you allow it to.
Maybe a good cry perhaps??? I would say YES to that. Sometimes that's what it takes to move on. Clearing your thoughts as well as your mind can put you in a good place. I often feel like after I am done wondering and thinking so hard, why didn't I trust Him enough to give him all my cares by praying and then releasing all my "stuff?"
Hmmmmm.....I really can't answer that, but the one thing I do know is that carrying your own burdens can cause great grief in your life. Grief that isn't necessary for one to have. My Heavenly Father takes pleasure in difficult situations and handling them for us. It's so simple, but instead we make it complicated. Sometimes I amaze myself. Not to mention that when you are about to do something so wonderful, Satan beefs up his attack.
It is my desire to have the "Joy of the Lord" regardless. Even in the midst of tears and heartache, having joy should be a daily goal if you will. Remember, HE delights in giving us the desires of our hearts. One of the gifts HE gave me was my husband. I decided to talk to him about some things that were really bothering me and this is what he told me: "Babe, you have to do everything you do as if you were doing it for the Lord. Things are going to get better and the ministry that you desire will manifest." All I could do was cry because here I'm thinking he's going to side with me and tell me what I wanted to hear. Ohhhhh baby, that was nowhere near what I thought he would say, but instead, it was what I needed to hear. I am so thankful that the Lord saw fit to allow this man to find ME!!!! He knew this is what I needed to hear on a day such as today.
The more I sat and prayed on this evening, the more my spirit settled down. Where I am not totally settled with and what how things are in certain situations, I am waiting for God to show up in my life. He will never leave or forsake me, so I have to trust him in all that I do.
I am His beloved and HE loves me. Lord, I trust you and thank you for making my path clear.
Kiwanya
