Hardly anyone would think of turning down Job Offers at this point in time. It's almost Christmas and being penniless would be unimaginable. But hey. You have to tighten the screws in my head. I just turned down two job offers in two straight days, and I don't even have a third job offer at hand. Gawd, what was I thinking, you'd ask? I had the least time to think about it, and I deemed it was best to not accept. It seems that I have quite become unsure of what I really want in this life, given the options I have. The point is, my options are too limited, and I just can't allow myself to settle for anything less. It's impractical, I know. And it's driving my parents mad, and my boyfriend, too. They don't really understand where I'm coming from, nor how idealistic I still am no matter how heavy the burden is on my shoulders, and how the strong drive to success keeps me awake tossing around every night. They have long just stopped trying to understand and just let me be, and in such sense, they care less now.

Now, I have no excuses. I just didn't want those jobs because I know I'm not comfortable with those. Though my ego was fed after a long while.