How do you change the decision your heart has made when your mind knows better?

So many times, I’ve known better but I chose to do what my heart was telling me to do because of ‘love’. Give more, open up, be there when he needs you, come when you're called upon, be that shoulder, be that wallet, be everything he would ever want. I’ve put so much of myself aside to please one person that all I’ve ever received was lost dignity. I’ve known better to continuously give when I’ve had nothing in return, but because my heart was so set on something I believed to be true I chose to do something different than what I knew was right.

I know I should do better, but I never do. I can’t seem to differentiate between what my mind is telling me to do and what my heart is asking of me. I’ve grown up with this deep threaded belief in true love and happily-ever-after’s that sometimes I become confused on what’s reality and what is my own fantasies. We live in a world now where many people don’t believe in true love, where people are afraid of love and have “commitment, and trust issues.” Nobody nowadays wants to give all of themselves to someone. Nobody wants to be so vulnerable that someone else can hurt them, and I mean truly hurt them. So we all just put up these walls, and nobody listens to their heart anymore.
Sometimes I wonder if that’s why I’m constantly getting hurt. Because I’m the foolish one that lets down her guard, that opens up, that lets people in, and that allows myself to be vulnerable enough to others in hopes that they won’t hurt me. I believe in true love. Call me old fashioned, call me a hopeless romantic, call me crazy even, that won’t stop me. I believe it exists. There is one person out there for you, someone who will love you with all their heart, as much as you love them with yours. None of this stupidness about “I have trust issues” or “I don’t do relationships.” They’ll be completely yours.

Do I believe love is easy? No, of course it isn’t. Love is harder than anything in this world. Confiding your soul and heart in someone so deeply that your whole being is trapped in the hurt they could surround you with, it’s devastating. It’s scary. It’s hard. But in the end, I believe it’s absolutely worth it.

You just have to be courageous enough to find the person you’re meant to be so vulnerable with.