I used to hear the saying “God may not come when you want him to. But he is always on time”.

It is also said that God’s timing is Perfect.

I am sure to God everything about him is perfect, but to me, he sometimes takes too long to come or to get things done.

My saying used to be “One will be dead by the time God comes”.

I understand that time is infinite with God still this reality is displeasing in certain situations or circumstances.

In my experience, God has Wasted too much of my time in a period of my life from one point in childhood and a point in adulthood. He really pissed me off in the process too.

God takes the beauty out of things that bring joy when he makes one grow weary with boredom and annoyance through putting one through designs of his that serve his purpose while delaying someone else’s. If or when he finally does come with something especially desired one may not even want the shit anymore since God took so long.

The most important things, of course, are to have our necessities and protections in life. And to be grateful for what we already do have- yet I did not ask to come into this sick, fucked up world.

I can weather any storm that may come around during a particular season, and my true happiness comes from within.

One truth I have discerned from a young age is that if there is anything I do not want in life the condition will not work out.

My life must go the way I want it, or it is not going to run smoothly at all!

No one can persuade me to live my life or live life in a way that does not appeal to me.