I saw myself going backwards fast…

I felt the regression and lord, It felt so good…

I knew I should stop, knew It was a bad idea…

But hey, familiar actions are addicting and I Needed that hit…

I didn’t care about what It would cost me, I just wanted that feeling…

I needed It again. That rush. That spark . That high…

Consequences were the least of my worries…

Only thing on my mind was the feeling and the feeling is what I got…

Heart racing, color forming, light shinning, Muscle tightening type of feeling.

I got It. I wanted It. I needed It.

High faded..

Heartbeat slowed down

Colors went back to normal

Lights dimmed

Muscles relaxed

And just like that I lost my sobriety chip.

Back to day 1.

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Hi, my name is O and I’m addicted to dysfunction.

– to be continued