Otivia’s  Morning Thoughts 

Location: in Bed snuggled

Date: February 27th 2018

Time: 6:10 A.M

I’m surrounded by so many sounds in the Morning.

From the sweet melodic birds sitting on a branch outside my window, to the inconsistent sound of tires moving over wet uneven pavement. If I pay attention and close my eyes I can even hear the constant ticking coming from the wall clock hanging over my bed.

If you ever really just listen to the sounds around you, they all kind of make up this unique song that is made just for you at that specific moment in time.

¦TIME: 6:27 A.M¦

As time goes by, the sounds get more consistent and louder. The sounds of footsteps during the morning rush to the train station, the barking of dogs being walked, cats fighting, the ambulance rushing down the streets sirens ablaze. It all sounds so hectic, however, I wouldn’t have it any other way. Living in Brooklyn my whole existence, these hectic sounds center me. When I close my eyes and listen carefully with purpose, I feel as if I am apart of something bigger. With my eyes closed, it’s as if  I can see the sounds that I hear like a moving picture in my head.

¦TIME: 6:35 A.M¦

I’m hungry. Bacon perhaps?

¦TIME: 6:45 A.M¦

Still thinking about bacon but there is no more in the house. Sadness sets in. Wonder if Mike could bring me some bacon on his lunch break.   

¦TIME: 6:51 A.M¦

The sun is rising and I feel good. No anxiety about the future, past or present. I am just here in this moment. Grateful. Only thing that could push this over the edge would be bacon lol.

¦TIME: 7:00 A.M¦

Like I’ve said before, forcing myself to stay present is a difficult and time consuming task. My mind literally wonders a billion times a second. I have to force myself not to make mental lists and notes in my head. When I force those thoughts out I  immediately feel lighter and the feeling of anxiety that was beginning to form quickly goes away. Again, it is difficult but very rewarding so every morning I attempt it. As the mornings progress so does my effort.

I turn off all the lights and light a few candles. I put my phone on do not disturb, turn off the tv, close my laptop and just sit still. Every time a thought enters my mind I acknowledge it and go back to concentrating only on breathing. I sit and block everything out. I don’t think about the past, I don’t think about my future, I don’t think about my present.

¦TIME: 8:00 A.M¦

Now as I continue on with my day I will smile and think positive thoughts. Somedays are better than others, and today is one of those good days. Hope you all have a great & productive day today.

You’ve been an amazing crowd! Get home safely.

-Otivia