Ok, guys, this is going to be a bit of a cringey post. But I have no idea who to tell and I’m worried that if I tell anyone I know it will suddenly be ALL over the School. Before you read this, you should read the start of this post to know the layout of my school/s.

-deep breath- Ok here I go.

Ok as I’m assuming I’ve never told you guys, but I’m one of those “Love at first sight” people. I have a friend who’s friends with this boy in the boys’ school. It’s weird but he’s kind of a big deal to my friends and he’s always the subject of jokes and “Chinese Whispers”. I think a few of them “like” him too. I’ve never got how they can be so cocky and confident about boys they hardly know. When I first saw him I was confused because he looks exactly like one of my slightly older friends who goes to a completely different school.

I did realize eventually soon that It couldn’t be him but I still have a crush on him now. Last night was the schools’ summer concert which is a joint concert between the boys’ and girls’ school, which I sang at (there may be a post just about this soon). I was sitting up on the hall balcony with 2 of my friends when one of them sees him and three other Guitar players get up on the stage and sit down with their guitars. Of course my friends kick up a fuss and for some reason they didn’t know he played guitar which struck me as kinda odd as they act like they’re so close to him. I surprised them by saying I knew and they looked at my like I was lying. They asked how I knew him and how I knew he played guitar. I answered “Through -Friends name-. And his name is in the program and he sometimes carries a guitar case when he walks down the drive”. It’s still confuses me because I swear they are usually more observant. All of this time he’s just sitting there tuning the guitar on stage. I feel so stupid saying that because it know they are going to suspect that I have a pash on him.

Ok now I’ve kinda gone off topic. Anyways I just feel stupid; like I’m almost not aloud to like him. I feel like I have no chance because I’m not “in the original group” of girls that “know” him (aka have spoken to him once)

I just needed to get this out to someone.

I need some advice.

I hope you guys can help me in any way possible.

Thanks for reading.

–  Always Dreaming xx ❤