I Don't Know
Maybe I should just stop at that. This week has been a triangle or stress, relaxation, and Depression; and I just don't know which corner I am falling into next. It hasn't been a bad week, but it could have been more productive. There are things I am unhappy about. I am stressed over finals, which start tomorrow for me, but I am thrilled at the prospect of school being done in a few days and getting things finished. I have a fairly large list of things to do this summer, both fun and work and would like to get down to them. I have to keep Busy. Busy is good.
But still, after being busy for days this week, the tentacles of depression were weaving their way into my mind. The inevitable outcome of my improper chemistry. Damn thing.
Summertime
I would really like to take off and do some extended hiking this summer. This raises a few problems. I have yet to meet with my new doctor and see his recommendations for ECT, see if my insurance approves it, and find out what the schedule might be. What I really need is some good time alone....but that historically can turn out baaaaad. So I will need someone to hike with, at least some of the way.
I guess that is it for now. I cannot seem to keep my mind in an entry these days. After I sit down to write, I get distracted and lose focus.
This post first appeared on Somehow Forward - My Struggle With Bipolar Depression And Suicide, please read the originial post: here
