A Starting Point
"What are you going to do when the feelings are strong and you want to kill yourself?"
Hold onto the Hope that there is hope. Maybe that sounds ridiculously cyclic, but it's what I've got at the moment. The Darkness is still there...for sure. But action item 1 on my list to combat a suicidal situation is to work and keep Busy. The best personal medication I have EVER had is work. Today was good for that single reason. I was busy. The darkness has a hard time creeping in when my mind is busy balancing ionic equations, studying with a friend, exercising at the gym, or studying more chemistry for my horrible exam tomorrow.
We will have to see where tomorrow takes me. I still have plenty to do. The semester is beginning to wrap up and the proverbial shit is hitting the fan. Add in that it is easter weekend and hopefully I will be so busy that depression is out in the cold. But it will be back. It doesn't like being left out. A greedy bastard it is.
This post first appeared on Somehow Forward - My Struggle With Bipolar Depression And Suicide, please read the originial post: here
