So I know I haven’t been posting too much lately like normal but my heads been in a weird place. First off, I want to apologize for being so behind on everything. I’ve been a little busy figuring things out, planning, and being homesick.
My Boyfriend and I actually recently got back from visiting MS which is our home state and visiting family and friends and it was just so nice to see everyone because I’ve missed them so much. Honestly, it surprised me but I even missed the town and the memories there. I used to want to get out for so long but now I just am so ready to be back home since we visited. Plus, leaving family behind again isn’t the simplest thing to do, at all.
So, my boyfriend recently got a new job working two weeks on and two weeks off and I would just be stuck in the house alone all the time where I have no idea who anyone is in this town yet so we decided to just move back. Around August or the end of August at least we will be heading out of New Mexico. This is a great state I have to admit, especially all of the sunshine and no humidity. The thing is though, it’s not home. We’ve been here this long and it still can’t feel like home, because my heart knows where my home really truly is.
Mississippi isn’t my favorite place in the world, but it means a lot to me and that’s all that matters. My life is making some changes but I promise I’m going to try and keep up to date with my blog and not get AS behind as I have lately. These changes aren’t finished changing yet, but hopefully, they will all turn out to be great and good changes. Honestly, happiness is my ultimate goal and I haven’t been 110% happy lately with a lot of things or with a lot of people.
My life needs a huge change or turnaround and moving home will be the first step towards it all. Also, I’m going to try to work on being healthier and taking better care of myself.
Lately I’ve battled with my anxiety and have actually done very well at that part. Finally came out of my shell with my singing in front of others which is definitely nice to not just sing to myself all the time. I just feel like it’s time for a change in my life to make things better and me happier. Some might call that selfish, I call it trying to make better for my life. I’ve spent way too long hiding in my shell and not showing my talents or saying how I truly feel.
Anyways, thank you guys for reading and sticking around while I’ve been gone. Like I said though I’ve just been trying to find my 110% true self and what I need to do to be happy with my life. Taking huge steps, risks, and finally living life is what I’m trying to do. But thank you guys for reading and I have some great posts coming up soon, promise!
