"I don't Regret You"
I still think about you
-sometimes,
It's fascinating
how your memory
isn't even an image anymore;
but more like
a ghostly, faint shape,
far off in the distance,
surviving on the smallest hints
of remembrance.
My mind won't let you die
and every so often
you come up
to the forefront
of my memories
with such terrifying vibrance
reminding me
why I left.
I don't regret me leaving
only that I invested so much.
I don't regret having to look
at an empty apartment,
I don't regret having to pack my things,
pulling down pictures and leaving behind
the ones that would bring memory,
I don't regret the evenings
together on the couch,
snug with our favorite blanket,
I don't regret our small moments
or the nights we had
where we bared our souls
and we got to know
more
than anyone before,
more
intimately than anything
we had ever shared before.
I don't regret the pain
of having to move from our home,
or living in the empty remains of a home ruined,
I regret only having invested so much
because
somewhere
my intent did not line up with my heart,
And we both deserved better.
I hope you found the happiness
I could not find
to provide,
I knew then what I still know now...
I don't love you
but I also
Don't Regret You.
-Armando Torres
