What are you not able to do?

I didn’t write this article to make my ego stronger nor with desire to have your admiration. I decided to write it to show you how your life would be growing up if you stop identify yourself with your thoughts and mainly with sentences said my someone else and you believed.

I couldn’t move my neck, I couldn’t walk, I couldn’t really move my right arm, I was seeing double and the fact I was seeing double I only realized after two days.

As you know, I survived the car accident when I had 16 bones fractures, swollen brain, lungs contuse and all kind of other stuff. Few first weeks when I was out of mind I thought that it was all the dream and I was going to wake up home but after some time I asked myself, and I remember like it was today: „Isn’t is very long dream? Hasn’t anything happen to you by any chance? After all these questions I woke up to „normal“ life. And right after my parents came to see me and I immediately started asking my mum why am I here and I asked my father what was going on with me and if I was going to have permanent impacts. His answer started as following: „I would start from the bottom.“ You can’t imagine how I felt after this conversation and my first thought was that it was all some movie and they were all playing me. When they finished talking I couldn’t remember what they said in the beginning. Only things I knew were the ones seen by me. I couldn’t move my neck.

„Now you know what is important in life.“

Until then, no doctor had visited me to tell me any prognosis of my conditions. The only thing I heard was the word „polytrauma“ and even until now I don’t know what it means. As you can know, you have a lot of time to think. The only thing which was echoing in my internal talk was: „Now you know what is important in life.“ „This was not coincidence.“ I started to believe these words and nowadays I believe them even more. And the other voice was telling me: „It will take a while but you will get better.“

But what was the most important thing for me at that moment? „I am walking!“

I immediately started asking when I was going to be able to learn how to walk and on daily basis I was slowly moving my shoulder and neck while laying on the bed until I could be using it like nothing happened and doctors were just surprisingly wriggle their heads. When I started to learn how to walk I had to admit the fact it was just going to look like „walking“ because I had the stick inserted to my thigh and I could put all my weight on this leg. And there was also no straight walking for me.

I wasn’t fighting anything and I took it the way it was

Then there was a roller coaster of doctors who I didn’t even know existed. I was fine with the fact I had to postpone some running or long walking for around a half year and I was happy for every single longer walk because my first maximum was probably one kilometer. I believed it was going to get better.

I got a little better after half year and by „better“ I mean I was able to walk my dog. With one crutch but I was already trying to get rid of it. Actually I made myself to go to climbing wall. Everything was going by my plan.

I went to the bed and had epilepsy seizure

When I was finally able to walk without crutches – it was not the walk like ballet dancer but still – I told myself I could had gone out. The next day I came home but since I was still tired I went to the bed and had epilepsy seizure. Nothing pleasant. There was another round of doctors after this seizure when the following sentence played the main role: „You can’t do this.“ They told me: „You can’t be tired.“ „You can’t do anything difficult.“ „No staying up late.“ Of course, there were more of these but they forgot to tell me that they were going to become the truth only if I believed them.

There was not a little of negativity in me throughout the whole time

You might not trust me but there was not a little of negativity in me throughout the whole time. I was not searching for any reasons but for ways how to get over it and so I was trying to figure it out. I found one healer who told me in the beginning that she was going to help me. I will be honest, I didn’t believe but I gave it a chance. Probably after two months I stopped taking the pills against epilepsy which I was supposed to be taking for two years (those were drugs not medicaments) and there was no sign of epilepsy anymore. Next, I had to try to move my body because I was cracking like fireworks and I was not able to do anything. So I started working out (which was forbidden for me) in cooperation with my personal trainer. I am really thankful to him and I hope he finally realizes these are not just empty words. He is really willing and it’s great to be working with him! So whoever else wants to start working out, don’t hesitate. You won’t find any better! Here is his FB page.

Only we are setting up our limits, no one else can do it instead of us. Whatever happens in our life, either good or bad, is not our life, it is not US, it’s just out life situation which we need to take. The negativity should not have any place in your life so don’t let her exist because only YOU decide.

Btw.. Vanes had sprained ankle, but she is still working hard!

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Čo nemôžeš robiť ty?

Tento článok som sa nerozhodol napísať preto, aby som si posilňoval ego a ani z túžby po uznaní. Rozhodol som sa ho napísať preto, aby som Vám ukázal, ako sa váš život bude vyvíjať, keď sa prestanete stotožňovať so svojimi myšlienkami, a hlavne s vetami, ktoré vyslovil niekto iný a vy ste tomu uverili.

Nemohol som hýbať krkom, nemohol som chodiť, nemohol som dobre hýbať pravou rukou a videl som dvojmo a to, že vidím dvojmo som si uvedomil až o dva dni..

Ako viete, prežil som autonehodu, pri ktorej som utrpel 16 zlomenín, opuch mozgu, pomliaždenie pľúc a podobné strasti. Prvé týždne, keď som bol mimo, som si myslel, že všetko to je iba sen, po ktorom sa preberiem zase doma, no po nejakom čase a pamätám si to ako včera, som sa sám seba opýtal: ,,Nie je to už veľmi dlhý sen? Nestalo sa ti náhodou niečo?´´. Po týchto otázkach som sa prebral k ,,normálnemu,, životu. Potom prišli za mnou moji rodičia a hneď som sa mojej mamy opýtal, prečo som tu a otca som sa opýtal čo mi všetko je a či budem mať trvalé následky. Jeho odpoveď začala nasledovne: ,,Začnem od spodku.“  Neviete si predstaviť ako som sa pri tomto rozhovore cítil. Moja prvá myšlienka bola, že je to nejaké divadlo, že to na mňa len hrajú. Keď to všetko zodpovedali, nepamätal som si čo bolo na začiatku. Jediné čo som vedel, bolo len mnou pozorované…

„Teraz už vieš, čo je v živote dôležité.“

Dovtedy za mnou nebol žiadny doktor, ktorý niesol nejaké prognózy môjho stavu. Jediné čo som zachytil, bolo slovo ,,polytrauma,, doteraz neviem čo to presne znamená. Ako môžete vedieť, v nemocnici máte dostatok času na rozmýšľanie. Jediné, čo znelo mojim vnútorným monológom bolo: „Teraz už vieš, čo je v živote dôležité.“ „Toto nebola náhoda.“ Uveril som tým slovám a dnes im verím ešte mocnejšie. A ďalší hlas hovoril: „No chvíľku to potrvá, ale dáš sa do poriadku.‘‘

Ale čo bolo pre mňa v tú chvíľu najpodstatnejšie? „Ja chodím!“

Hneď som sa zaujímal o to, kedy sa začnem učiť chodiť. Svoje rameno a krk som rozhýbaval na posteli denno-denne, až som nimi hýbal, ako by sa nič nestalo a doktori len krútili hlavou. Keď som sa začal učiť chodiť, musel som prijať skutočnosť, že to bude len ako ,,chodenie,, vyzerať, pretože som mal v stehne voperovanú tyč a nohu som nemohol svojou váhou zaťažiť. Takže nejaké rovné chodenie pre mňa neexistovalo.

S ničím som nebojoval a bral to také, aké to je..

Potom nasledoval kolotoč doktorov, o ktorých som ani nevedel, že takí vôbec existujú. S tým, že beh a nejaké dlhšie chodenie si budem musieť nejakého polroka odpustiť. To mi ale neprekážalo a tešil som sa z každej predĺženej prechádzky, pretože moje prvé maximum bol možno jeden kilometer. Veril som, že sa všetko zlepší.

Po polroku som už bol na tom o trochu lepšie. To ,,lepšie,, znamená, že som už dokázal ísť so svojim psom na prechádzku. Síce s jednou barlou, ale už som ju prestával potrebovať. Dokonca som sa odhodlal ísť aj na lezeckú stenu. Všetko išlo tak, ako som si predstavoval.

Išiel som si ľahnúť a dostal som epileptický záchvat

Keď už som bol schopný chodiť bez bariel, no stále to nebol krok, ako majú baletky, ale predsa. Povedal som si, že už sa môžem vybrať aj kdesi von. Na druhý deň som prišiel domov, ale keďže som bol ešte unavený, išiel som si ľahnúť a dostal som epileptický záchvat. Nič príjemné. Po tomto záchvate nasledovalo ďalšie turné po doktoroch, kde veta: „Toto už nemôžeš.,, Hrala hlavnú rolu. Povedali mi: „Nemôžeš byť unavený.“ „Nemôžeš robiť nič namáhavé.“ „Žiadne ponocovanie.“ Takých viet bolo omnoho viac, ale zabudli povedať, že jedine, ak tým vetám uverím, tak budú pre mňa pravdivé..

Nebola vo mne ani štipka negativity

Možno mi nebude veriť, ale za ten celý čas, nebola vo mne ani štipka negativity. Nehľadal som dôvody, ale spôsoby, ako toto všetko prekonať a tak som pátral. Dostal som sa ku jednej ľudovej liečiteľke ktorá mi na začiatku povedala, že ma dá dokopy. Poviem pravdu, neveril som ale skúsil som. Po asi 2 mesiacoch som prestal užívať lieky na epilepsiu, ktoré som mal brať 2 roky  (boli to drogy a nie lieky) a po epilepsii nebolo ani stopy. Ďalej som musel rozhýbať svoje telo, pretože som praskal ako petardy a vôbec nič som nevládal. Tak som sa pustil do cvičenia (ktoré mi zakázali) a v spolupráci s našim trénerom sme sa do toho pustili za čo mu veľmi ďakujem a dúfam, že teraz už pochopil, že moja vďaka ktorú mu opakujem vždy, keď je príležitosť, nie sú len prázdne slová. Je veľmi ochotný a naozaj sa s ním výborne pracuje! Takže kto ďalší sa chce pustiť do cvičenia, tak neváhajte. Lepšieho nenájdete! Tu je jeho FB stránka.

Limity si určujeme iba my sami, nikto nám ich nemôže určiť za nás. To, čo nás v živote postihne, či už dobré, alebo zlé udalosti, nie sú našim životom, to nie sme MY. Je to len naša životná situácia, ktorú musíme prijať. Negativita tu nemá svoje miesto, tak jej nedovoľte existovať, pretože o tom rozhodujete iba VY.

P.S Vanes vytknutý členok a tiež na sebe maká.

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