She said:
Hearing those words could kill just about anyone.
It was particularly harsher to hear it from her, whom I thought I loved for all those 4 years of relationship.
I asked, “What about all that hugs and kisses and love?”
She replied that all was lie, she pretended all that because I was the one who forced all these upon her. She just needed someone, as she had a breakup. She was just testing if I would be a good partner or not. I hurt me, a lot. I blacked out. I started hurling questions on her. My mind was full of hows, whys and what the fucks.
I cried after hearing this. I begged her to stay and being sorry. I fell on her feet and relentlessly cried that whole night until I lost my voice. I had never cried this hard.
I was crying relentlessly ans pleading, “please try to understand, whatever I am not, I will be for you.”
She just instructed me to accept and digest this. She told me to move on.
She is now happily married to her best friend, the guy who was responsible for the rift between us. But I know, it is not the guy’s fault. She never loved me.
I believe this was the hardest I cried and in future I won’t cry like that. I now don’t believe in love, now emotions don’t bring tears in my eyes. The only emotion I know is anger and hate. I still want her only to hate her. I am no more the same person I used to be. I have become very insensitive, especially to situation when a person should be more compassionate.
“I never loved you. There is no love.”Ouch.
Hearing those words could kill just about anyone.
It was particularly harsher to hear it from her, whom I thought I loved for all those 4 years of relationship.
I asked, “What about all that hugs and kisses and love?”
She replied that all was lie, she pretended all that because I was the one who forced all these upon her. She just needed someone, as she had a breakup. She was just testing if I would be a good partner or not. I hurt me, a lot. I blacked out. I started hurling questions on her. My mind was full of hows, whys and what the fucks.
I cried after hearing this. I begged her to stay and being sorry. I fell on her feet and relentlessly cried that whole night until I lost my voice. I had never cried this hard.
I was crying relentlessly ans pleading, “please try to understand, whatever I am not, I will be for you.”
She just instructed me to accept and digest this. She told me to move on.
She is now happily married to her best friend, the guy who was responsible for the rift between us. But I know, it is not the guy’s fault. She never loved me.
I believe this was the hardest I cried and in future I won’t cry like that. I now don’t believe in love, now emotions don’t bring tears in my eyes. The only emotion I know is anger and hate. I still want her only to hate her. I am no more the same person I used to be. I have become very insensitive, especially to situation when a person should be more compassionate.
