7 AM

I’m half awake, I find my Mobile, check it with half opened eyes. Open WhatsApp, no good morning messages. Oh!! She is not there, no one bothers to text me so early.

9:30 AM

I’m driving to Office, my friend is sitting on the back seat. And, my friend utilizes that time to talk to his girlfriend. 

1 PM

It’s our lunch break. I go out thinking about her that I may see her roaming sometimes. I finish my lunch, come back to office. Start work, take break, remember her, and it goes on...

6:30 PM

Now it’s time to go back home, but I don’t want. I think, what I will do at home? No matter I will have dinner or not, I surely will think about her and ruin my evening.

9:30 PM

Now, I’m sitting in my room. I see everything in my room related to her, including her hairpins; I hate all these now. I get involved in thoughts, deep thoughts. I miss her. I miss being with her. Before sleeping, I open my laptop, try to watch some TV series or movies, close it in midway. The joys are replaced by tears. And those enchanting talks are replaced by silence.

1:30 AM…

I cry myself to sleep, tears well up in my eyes, run from the corners of each eye down to my ears as my head rests on the pillow. They never reach my cheeks. I can feel the wet streaks, as they nestle behind each earlobe on the pillow. This is the time I remember her most. Sometimes I hear her voice. Other times, I forget what it sounds like.
I feel helpless, I want to see her, I want to talk to her. But, I have not her mobile number, I am blocked from all social media accounts. Her friends do not reply, treat me as a creepy ex of their beloved friend. Few of them have also blocked me, lol. I feel incapable of doing anything, I feel weak, insignificant.

I do not remember, when I sleep in night.

Please don’t judge me that I’m in a miserable condition or need sympathy.