In my 42 years of existing and being alive on this planet, the one thing I could truly count on is fate's consistency in throwing a jest every once in a while, when I least expect it. And for many years it has been the cause of many moments laden with anxiety, frustration, and distress.
However, I am grateful because as one age, there is that so-called wisdom that is gained from many years of disappointing if not painful experience. And I am grateful that at least in terms of being wary whenever things are happening so smoothly, I have been able to stay true to it.
Last week I asked for a computation of my tuition and was pleasantly surprised to find that it was less than what I have expected. From 26,000 pesos which is my estimate, the figure that was given to me was only 15,000 pesos. I was of course so elated, and my mind was flooded with images of Chergui a perfume from Serge Lutens that I have been anxiously wanting to purchase. I kept thinking how blessed I was and that maybe I did something good which warranted this financial benefit. When I went to the cashier to pay, I was advised to return the following day since they were experiencing some technical problems.
I, of course, went home but delighted in the idea that I would have a lot of savings. Initially, I thought "why not go online and order Chergui on eBay?' But for some reason, there was that feeling I could not shake off. It is as if I knew something's wrong though I cannot really pinpoint what it was. And so I exercised restraint and willed myself not to do anything until I have paid my tuition.
The following morning, as I was standing in front of the cashier mentally excited about the money I would be able to save, I was informed that the computation generated by the registration system was erroneous. And as the cashier's words were pouring in my ears mentally, I can see the other "me" saying "well, it's good that you didn't do anything rash last night." So I ended paying the amount of 25,000 pesos instead of the previously computed 15,000 pesos.
Was I happy about the whole thing? Yes and no. For one I am very grateful that I did not fall for one of Destiny's sick sense of humor and I did not break the bank. But of course part of me is still aching for that bottle of perfume I could have purchased if the savings were real. But then again, in my universe, it's always best to wait for the punchline before doing anything with finality, or else, in the words of Myrtle Snow "it appears as though we're fucked, my dear!"
However, I am grateful because as one age, there is that so-called wisdom that is gained from many years of disappointing if not painful experience. And I am grateful that at least in terms of being wary whenever things are happening so smoothly, I have been able to stay true to it.
Last week I asked for a computation of my tuition and was pleasantly surprised to find that it was less than what I have expected. From 26,000 pesos which is my estimate, the figure that was given to me was only 15,000 pesos. I was of course so elated, and my mind was flooded with images of Chergui a perfume from Serge Lutens that I have been anxiously wanting to purchase. I kept thinking how blessed I was and that maybe I did something good which warranted this financial benefit. When I went to the cashier to pay, I was advised to return the following day since they were experiencing some technical problems.
I, of course, went home but delighted in the idea that I would have a lot of savings. Initially, I thought "why not go online and order Chergui on eBay?' But for some reason, there was that feeling I could not shake off. It is as if I knew something's wrong though I cannot really pinpoint what it was. And so I exercised restraint and willed myself not to do anything until I have paid my tuition.
The following morning, as I was standing in front of the cashier mentally excited about the money I would be able to save, I was informed that the computation generated by the registration system was erroneous. And as the cashier's words were pouring in my ears mentally, I can see the other "me" saying "well, it's good that you didn't do anything rash last night." So I ended paying the amount of 25,000 pesos instead of the previously computed 15,000 pesos.
Was I happy about the whole thing? Yes and no. For one I am very grateful that I did not fall for one of Destiny's sick sense of humor and I did not break the bank. But of course part of me is still aching for that bottle of perfume I could have purchased if the savings were real. But then again, in my universe, it's always best to wait for the punchline before doing anything with finality, or else, in the words of Myrtle Snow "it appears as though we're fucked, my dear!"
