Sigh. So far my life in July wasn't that good. The other day, I had a very terrible day. My boss abashed me in front all of the staff regarding some personal matter during our weekly staff meeting. Being the sensitive me, I cried in front of everybody. It was so so embarrassing. I felt like a total sissy. Since then, I felt terrible all the time. Had a Big Fight with s the next day made things worse. Even as I'm typing this, I still have this ache inside of me. Plus, I received some sad update about a friend a week ago and of course some daddy issues that I rather don't wanna talk. So yeah what a month. No matter how hard I do my job here, it still isn't enough. S told me to stop working hard because in the end no one will notice all the effort so be cool. (Not exactly his word but that probably what he meant.) My colleagues told me to take few days leave just to lessen the stress and burden but in the end I refused because I have no frigin' idea what's wrong with me. I don't want to start complaining because that will make things sadder. S in no longer around since the big fight. He stopped calling or texting. So guess I'm all alone now. Fighting all this obstacles by myself. But that's okay though I need this somehow to make me stronger because I believe in the end, I will always end up alone. How very sad.