I know I haven't updated in a while, I've been busy.

But. . . .I don't think anyone really understands how much I want to be at KU. How much it kills me that I don't get to go, and instead have to go to community college. How much it freaks me the fuck out that I may not get the same college experience.

Today as I was filling out my KU application, I realized that when I'm done with my year at community I will potentially have 40 hours. That makes me a fucking sophomore. And I really don't want to even be a second semester sophomore, or a junior, or a senior or anything. I want to go to KU and no one gets that. My dad was making fun of me because I'm nervous that I might be a second semester sophomore. It's not funny, I don't want to spend half my college time at fucking Maple Woods where people have fucking "water pong" tournaments. That's fucking lame, what the fuck. I don't want to go to college with all the retarded high school people I hate so fucking much.

Fucking hate this.