Near the end of last month, a family member who I mentioned was not well back in February, passed away. I didn't get to see him, before his passing, due to him passing away in the early hours. But I take comfort knowing his wishes were respected, where he wanted to be.

His funeral wasn't so long ago.

New ladies started in my evening job, earlier in this month. These are ones employed by my employer and not agency. A lovely bunch, who seem to be right choice.

Unfortunately, I unintentionally upset one lady towards the end of the first week. I won't go in detail, but I triggered something in her when having a laugh with her as I have done in the past with the ladies who have now retired and who have laughed the same way with me. I could only apologise over and over for the upset I caused her. She accepted my apology. I thought things changed, regardless my apology has been accepted. But later, on a new week, I felt things were ok and back to how it was before it happened. 

This month was my birthday. I worked at my morning job on my birthday, but after that and the remainder of that week, the days were mine, as I put annual leave in both jobs.

The two photos below are birthday cards I received. 

I went for a walk round Kings Mill res after my morning job had finished and had my mid-breakfast at the cafe on there, before continuing enjoying myself around there further, then making my way home after.

Lunch was sandwiches and crisps. I had a glass of Shloer with that. I drank the remainder by afternoon and I had a bottle of cola towards the evening, which I drank some of it and saved the rest for the next day.

After my lunch, I watched a few girly dvd's. 

For dinner I just had 2 southern chicken legs in breadcrumbs, some crisps and a small piece of lemon drizzle cake from the Free From range at Tesco. 

I treated myself to a new waterproof jacket, which I bought near the end of last month.

I also treated myself to a couple of t-shirts which I bought from an Etsy seller. I also bought these as a reminder on my mindful path I am taking.

There has been a couple of occasions where I have not felt safe on my street. 

One has been in the day, back in February, where I didn't feel easy how a bloke was looking at me. He had an evil look. He even looked back when he passed me. I walked slower as so he be out of sight before I got to my House, checking back before I got to my door to be sure he wasn't coming back round. 

The other was this month, in the evening coming back from work. (Not dark nights now, as daylight with spring here.) Luckily I was on opposite side from the house and I am keeping it like that from now on because I am usually on that side at that point, before crossing over. This house was a little rowdy and a bloke threw a drinking glass out of the upstairs window. It went onto the road after what sounded like bouncing of that properties bin beforehand. I looked, as you do, to see what it was all about, while walking past. I did not say anything. He on the otherhand was very verbally aggressive towards me, from the upstairs window. 

As you know I have already witnessed a couple of incidents on this street, since living here. One being either the same property as the incident above, or otherwise its another property close by and hearing another incident the other end of the street of shouting and screaming coming from a house. That house since then been up for sale and sold.

And another thing with this street. Dog shit. I have lost count how many times I have stood in dog shit on my street, or managed to avoid standing in dog shit. It's the worst street I have lived on when it comes to this.

As you know the garden fence is down and boundary responsibility is more likely that side and not my landlords. Its a empty house and has been for a few years apparently. 

The other side, doesn't close their door, they slam it. So I know when they are in, by that alone.

On an occasion not so long ago, as I just stepped into my home, their door slammed. So I turned around to see who done it. I said nothing. Surprisingly she apologised for it. But did anything improve with that. No. Not after that day and it seems to be her each time when I am witness to it. 

Regardless that living here has not gone to plan has I hoped, I ain't moving to another private property anytime soon. 

I don't want to move again so soon to any other private property while my mum is alive. But if I am lucky to get a council property, then of course I won't turn that offer down, knowing how hard getting one is.

But I don't regret moving here. Being here has still made things better for me, than if I stayed at my previous place.

And I am going to still enjoy how these things have made me feel better, compared to before living here. 

Also, to enjoy seeing the changes in the garden, as well as seedlings I am growing outside and inside of food. Its only salad leaves and hopefully later,  strawberries. But its something.

As mentioned just, I am growing strawberries. Three strawberry seedlings were planted in a large pot outside and I have three more strawberry seedlings indoors. So as soon as they have grown larger, they will go in another pot.

I tidied up a pot near the house that had too much going on, so that just one plant had the space of this pot, which I think is Sweet Pea.

With the fence down, the buddleia that I was intending to dig out, but didn't get round to, I shall now leave it where it is, so there is no bare space. Instead, I will just maintain it, so it don't get out of hand.

Originally, if I was going to dig it out, another smaller bush was going to go in its place, that would have been food for the birds in winter. 

Oh and where did these flowers pop from? These flowers took me by surprise when I went to my bin. Its nice to see some kind of flower with height.

Near the end of the month I cleared all of my my own tweets on my private Twitter account. I did this for a fresh start feeling after how I have felt since 2019. But also how I have felt over the last two years. 

I used a third party app to clear all my tweets in one go, which I was hesitant about doing it this way, with not doing anything like this before. Once it had done the job, I revoked the app.

I found afterwards I couldn't tweet on my own wall. But once I tweeted on someone elses and it went ok, I then tried again on my own and found I could tweet alright. And its remained alright since.

I have left a pinned tweet on my account afterwards to just let everyone know what I had done, with my tweets vanishing.

I then took a Twitter break, with my family members funeral being just the next day and I am possibly having a break a few days after. So have warned if not back by the  weekend then I will see them after the jubilee crap.

Late Bank Holiday in May was moved to 2nd June and we were given 3rd June as an extra bank holiday for the jubilee celebration this year.

I appreciate my bank holiday. But I am no way celebrating it after the way the last two years have gone and how its currently going. The money could have been put somewhere else for better use than this. So I won't be on social media between 1st to 5th June, to avoid all this jubilee crap. I shall be in my dvd world. So my next blog post won't be until sometime after, which I hope to air my next self-reflection post.

© "Liz's Onward Journey," by Elizabeth Fisher