How can you hate someone who has done so much for you? This is a question without an answer to me which actually keeps me awake at night. This someone is a special person, a person that has been with me since  day 1 or maybe even before that. My father. 

Here is the tricky part. He hasn’t done much to me or for me or anyone else for that matter. But, that one thing he does he tells on it for days or years, in front of whomever just to get the best dad badge that only he can see. 

In my eyes, he’s a Hypocrite with a big mouth and a small mind. In his eyes, he’s the best dad, best husband and best son who has sacrificed a lot and achieved a lot. In truth, he’s not any of that. Whatever he has sacrificed he has made it while whining like a baby giving up candy. Whatever he has achieved are mostly out of luck or convenience. 

I may not be the best daughter but I cannot unsee how much of a self serving, egoistical hypocrite he really is. 

Issue of the matter is he thinks and believes that his wife is there to serve him like a slave. And I cannot just stand by but speak up on the matter while living under his roof. He believes that speaking up is disrespect towards this great living being aka himself.