Acknowledgement
As the Laureate of Procrastination, I deem myself fit to enroll on an expedition to “normality” while documenting the journey for science.
Why now? After listening to numerous talks, and reading through every google response to my question “what’s wrong with me?”
I came to terms with the reality – I am a procrastinator! Social Media isn’t real, and all the people I admire, work their asses off to be where they are today! As a 35 year old with a long history of poor choices due to this issue, I realized that if I want to reset my life, I have to pick myself up and make it the fuck happen!
How? You might ask? That’s why we are here! I have no clue!
Post self-reflecting, I thought – “what’s the easiest way to spark a change?”
I know! Download shitloads of apps for the changes I want to make & buy the premium version to feel obliged to keep up.
The result? I gave 2 days later!
What’s next? My friend told me about a ted talk, that helped her. The empowering speaker talked about how to be a self starter and a kickass. “I can do that.” I though to myself.
So here I am, one video later, listening to Tim Urban joking about procrastination.
“That’s me!!!” I yelled to myself! “Yes! Yes! Exactly!” Were the only words coming out of my mouth.
I found myself in each word! Always lacking motivation, the only reason I graduated college or was successful at work, was a set deadline, and now that I want to start my own thing – I am being passive.
Per Tim Urban, there are two types of procrastinators: Better off is the one with a deadline because each time, right before the due date, the “panic monster” wakes up, forcing the procrastinator to do the required.
The worst case scenario, (mine) is the procrastinator with no deadline, in my words – a self starter without fuel.
So what do I do now, with a great project idea but nobody to keep me on track? I have no fucking clue! This is me posting on a blog, in hopes of gaining at least one invested reader, who I’ll feel obliged to keep updated.
And here I am – day 5 of writing this comically short article that doesn’t require any further research, trying to finish up in time for an article called “Sunday Reset,” so that I can finally feel semi-proud of myself.
Detecting success:
For any goal to be effective, success should be tracked. Well, at least for a procrastinator, it’s crucial to see the small milestones.
My biggest mistake was going all in too fast, resulting in anxiety and overwhelm. The bigger the start the quicker the finish. This time, I am setting small goals. I don’t force myself into anything, and I try to make my new lifestyle transition as seamless as possible. Lets hope it helps.
What did I do?
- I began to go out on morning walks. Every single morning I go for a small hike with my son and our dog.
- I wrote this article. Hurray!
- I started being active on social media for work.
With a feeling of bleh, (kinda okayishly proud of myself) I’m set on this journey to a life altering change. Accepting any form of motivation and suggestions in the comments, I will be back next Sunday, giving more updates on my not so wonderful story.
