I was ruminating today,trying to figure out my fear of people.I still have nightmares of being a young child going to school. I have flashbacks of being bullied. I've actually woken up in a cold sweat when the nightmares come. Even as an adult I still have that same fear.I've never really gotten into this in therapy. I guess that's because the level of my fear sits deep inside, while on the outside I am often erroneously taken as an extrovert. Sometimes I feel like I have to cower somewhere in a separate part of my mind while some other braver person has to take over and protect me. I space out.
This has happened on a fairly frequent basis. Jeeez, I'm a train wreck.