Whatcha Say

Jason Derulo

Lunchtime Thoughts

Now that I am feeling better, I actually feel like writing. Today’s lunch is quiet as the girls left to buy a few groceries at Walmart.

Unlike me, I have not been listening to much music via my Bose headphones lately. I have not even listened to music in the shower. And I have not showered regularly.

I’m listening to music now, and playing is Jason Derulo’s song, “Whatcha Say.” But some “Country Grammar” by Nelly is following that song on my very eclectic Amazon playlist.

But I chose the title based on a line lyric of the Derulo song because being told “It’s all for the best” is something that people with mental health issues have been told before being forced to take medication or undergo treatment that we may feel like is not going to be helpful.

While I have, overall, had a good experience with mental health treatment, I still have had my challenges and moments of despair over how my illness is viewed and treated. I have experienced coercion and feeling like I have to be medicated to the the hilt in order to function as a “successful” and “compliant” parent.

My youngest daughter had to write an essay for her Advanced Placement English Exam on how coercion can lead to resentment. She chose to back up that assertion with her own thoughts and feelings that mirror mine. I try not to coerce my daughters into doing anything. Sometimes this creates frustration as a parent, but I would rather them choose an option than me force it upon them.

I do not like being trapped, feeling blocked, or like I am forced to do something because “It’s all for the best.” And I suspect many people with mental illness feel the same. Only, we don’t always get to say, “No, what’s another option?”

Wrap Up

Well, my lunch is almost over. It always passes way too quickly! Thanks for reading my lunchtime thoughts.

I wish you moments of reflection and bliss in your day!