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I want to thank legendary R&B artist and Ghostbusters II soundtrack contributor Bobby Brown for the inspiring title of this entry, and how it fits into this mini-entry:
So…..I’ve been fighting off a Bad Headache since last night–headache getting so bad, upon my waking up this morning–, that it extended into nausea, and I had a loss of appetite pretty much the entire day; went from about 2 AM-12:45 AM or so without eating anything, and I had no problems doing it. Incidentally enough, I attributed my bad headache and nausea to a major blast from the Schumann Resonance, and it most likely was….as apparently the blasts were hittin’ hard, from the meters that I’ve seen. Well, my headache–while not getting worse as I was getting ready to clock out earlier–wasn’t exactly getting better, either.
That said, while waiting to clock out, I decided to check out some Wikipedia entries on classic TV shows for our favorite coworker, as she wanted to know if any of the actors were still alive, from any of the shows. I read off the results to her, as some other coworkers were coming in to take their breaks, and they started talking about how old the actors lived to be, and both she and another coworker started going on about how they hoped they wouldn’t have to live til anywhere near 100, or be put in a home or anything; the other coworker who was in the breakroom with us offered a counterpoint to them, stating that even if you don’t have the “mobility” capabilities so much anymore, you can still live a fruitful life; I brought up Epstein Island regular Stephen Hawking to back his point, but then he brought up about a 23 year old paralyzed from the neck down who communicates with everybody thru some device in his mouth, and he gives speeches to kids, and things like that. I basically laid out for them–and he agreed with this–that it’s not whether or not you can move around, but what you choose to do with your life that it comes down to; I stated that if all you do is depend on others to make your life worth living, yer livin’ a hell of a shitty life, and by choice.
Well, the interesting thing is, as I was making that point, and we were getting up to leave, I felt my headache starting to heavily subside. It’s not that it’s completely gone, but it’s mostly gone…..and I’m beginning to believe that it was the adrenaline rush I must’ve gotten increasing my intensity level, and “laying the smacketh down” that may’ve helped it do that. It wouldn’t be the first time that happened either; last time, incidentally, was when I worked at a grocery store, a customer asked me if I was open, and I stated “the light is on”, to which she got pissed off, and complained to my boss….and that gave me the adrenaline rush I guess I needed for my headache to go away.
It’s gotten me thinking: I’ve already stated that I believe part of my purpose in life is to do some “bitch-slapping”, as it were–not physically, of course, but “lay it out”, as they say–and I’m starting to believe now that while God does want me at peace with myself, he saw to it that I’m hyperactive and intense for a reason. He wants me to–as I said–do “bitch-slapping” for him; keeping people “in check” by calling it as I see it, whether they’re comfortable hearing it or not. He doesn’t need me to be “cool, calm, and collected”….suave like James Bond. I’m not, and never will be. The kicker is no….I don’t intend on going all Jason Statham (remember him?) “Crank” on people, and becoming some adrenaline junkie to keep my headaches at bay, and I did start cracking down heavily on my pop intake…and at the moment I’m beginning to wonder if I should resume higher levels of consumption, but I’ll let God guide me thru it all (caffeine; I know it’s not healthy, but that’s why I’m gonna need God’s guidance on this one).
The bottom line is….God made us all a certain way, and whether or not everybody else likes it, we gotta be the person we’re meant to be, as long as we do it to genuinely serve in his honor. Don’t freak out that you’re not the way the Normies want you to be, and do everything in your power to “become” what you aren’t; be who you are, and who you’re meant to be…..that’s why God brought you here. It’s–in fact–why I loved the movie Turning Red so much:
Meilin is raised to live a very shallow lifestyle, and it blows up in her face when she starts “becoming a woman”, with the intense emotion releasing the Red Panda spirit that her lineage is attached to. As soon as she discovers that her parents kept the information from her, it becomes extremely clear to the audience how poorly constructed the public visage she and the family have put up really is….in the process creating chaos throughout Ontario, having the spirits of her family’s Red Pandas come out to fix the entire mess, and re-do the entire ritual, with her finally coming to accept that it’s part of who she is, and to embrace it, not pretend she’s something she isn’t.
Be your honest self, live your truth, and who you’re meant to be….not the performance you want people to “like”; as someone on the spectrum, you’ve been gifted special abilities Normies haven’t been…use them, and use them in conjunction with however your personality works, to their full benefit. It’s trying to squeeze yourself into a box not meant for you that will do the most damage to you in the long run.
Well, that’s everything for now. Talk to you folks soon; oh, and I nearly forgot….yes, the AC/heating units have been installed, and now the electrician has to install the outlets for them. Once he does that, I can finally get to work on getting my apartment in the shape I want it, so there’s that.
Later
